Syncing my life

..... So Ephesian 2:20 says that He can exceed my expectation. I need Him to do this and do it quickly. I wish I knew what to do something to speed up the process. I know that his timing isn't my timing. I just wish the world would operate on his timing. I wish I could tell the electric company you have to wait it is not His time for me to pay you. This brings something to mind that I learned when I was in school. It is about the timing of Native American society. They don't start until everyone is their. Time is a continuum to them. God's timing is like that. Think about it he never sleeps. His timing is also slower He says one day is like a thousand years. I guess we need to synchronize my life, but the question is how?

just for today

Today has been a trying day just trying to keep the discouragement that can be job hunting under control. So far today I have read John chapters 15-17.I was encouaged that Jesus prayed for me in John 17:20, because I am one of those who has believed in Hom because of his disciples. This birngs me to think about how the christian faith and a relationship with Jesus was designed to be a generational thing. The book of Judges reminded me of what could happen to values if we don't pass them down. The phrase if you don't stand for something you will fall for anything is so true. Also if you don't believe in something you will believe in anything. Our families and other people who surround us from the time we are young until now. The idea that we don't have values and beliefs is false and the idea that we are not influenced by others is false. I am on the journey of identifing my beliefs and values and who a influenced them. Through this process.I hope to prune my life accordingly.

A Question I have been asked many times

Today I was reading for John chapter 9 (read it is short). In verse three of this chapter Jesus disciples ask Him a question that I have been asked many times over the years in different forms. Who mess up here. Reading this passage brought me back to a conversation I had a few years ago ( I may post that conversation at the end of this post). The blind man in this story showed true faith because he up until this day in his life he has never seen anything. In verse 11 after he had told them the story about having to go to the pool and wash the Pharisees asked where is he (speaking of Jesus). My first reaction in he was to the pool blind (he was sent that means Jesus did not go with him) the man has never seen him how would he know where he is or what he looks like (comon sense people). After the man having to repeat himself, to the pharisees Jesus shows up and because for the mans faith clearly makes himself known. At the end of the chapter Jesus deals with e pharisees conscience when they ask if they were blind. They were caught in a gotcha moment it is painful at times when He calls our bluff.

Here is the old past a promised earlier:

I ran to the union today to see if there was a computer open so I could type a paper that is due on Tuesday. Spring break means that everything is closed this weekend and open in Monday. The nice people ant the information desk on the third floor said that could open the lab on the third floor for me. After about a hour or two of working on the paper I decided to go to Sandella's to get something to eat as I was waiting for my food when two girls walked up and asked my name. I told them my name all the while thinking do I know you. One asked how long I had been in the chair. I said I was born with cerebral palsy (cp). they asked if they could pray for me I said sure. We continued to talk and the found that I was believe. They proceeded to say you God ever wanted you to be in a chair (I love when a conversation starts like this because it makes it very clear to me they have absolutely no idea what they talking about), I go with it. After a while they laid hands on me and prayed all the while I am looking around thinking will someone help me please. They are rebuking cerebral palsy in the name of Jesus. After they finished one ask me do you I want get up right now and walk I gave an emphatic no (thinking hell no ok so I admit that thought was every Christ like but neither was their theology)Things to consider.1. When you use Isaiah 55:8-9 as you basis you need to be careful. If my thoughts and ways are not his thoughts and ways your may not be either.2. The argument of God never intend for you to be in a chair or have cerebral palsy is crap as well. God allowed it. He may want me to take my first step without a struggle in front of Him in heaven. You need to talk with Job if you believe this falsehood. 3. Jesus never rebuked a disease. You can't use the story of the demons and swine in the bible. If you read it carefully he rebukes the demon not epilepsy or the man.I am always skeptical in situations like these, The began to talk about a friend of their who had cerebral palsy and how he was doing stuff the doctors never expected him to do. Well I am doing stuff the doctors never expected me to do that doesn't mean I am heeled. You don't know the effect of cerebral palsy until around 18 months. Look I just get real nervous when people start speaking for God and they use Isaiah 55:8-9 as the reference. Look heeling dies nit bring glory to God unless it is his will. Look at Paul he begged God to remove the thron from his flesh. 2 Corinthians 12:7-10. JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE HAS A DISABILITY DOES NOT MEAN THAT THEY ARE THEIR PARENTS HAVE SINNED. This argument is such a cop out look at John 9:1-12.As Christians we need to be careful not misrepresent the word of God. God speaks for himself very clearly and does not need us to muddy up his word. YOU MUST BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU DO IN THE NAME OF JESUS OR IN JESUS NAME.

About Current Events

One of the other things I realized to today was to appreciate the ordinary things. Many times I have my focus on the big picture or end result and a miss the detials. What I have come to realize is the detials lead to the big picture.

From watching the news lately I have noticed that we tend to not express the significance of someone after the a dead. Someone said refering to MJ. I only wish he was here to hear it. I know we all a wish that when someone dies, but there comes a lot of retrospective perspective when someone dies and no more can be written of their earthly history. I wish there was a way that we could for lack of a better pharse eulogize someone while they were still alive, but I don't know if that is possible.......... or is it?

Thoughts

I have been struggling to handled my anxiety during this job search the only thing I have found that works is reading the bible. I am in a three week bible study focusing on God's will. The bible study has allowed God to bring several things to mind this week. A preacher back home once said anytime a scripture comes to mind or God sends someone or something in your life such as a song or discipleship he is speaking directly to you at thay very moment. He also said when God brings someone or something in your mind to prayer for he is speaking directly to you at that moment. I have seen this truly at work in the past few days and weeks. Yesterday I decided to start reading the gospel of John because it is completely centered around Jesus as the Son of God. I continue to pray that iwill hear something about the job this week, but I also pray for stamina as a expectantly wait.

The insight that was given me a few nights ago was:

While Iwas reading scriptures about waiting. I found it interesting what God says about it, and it is very different when you wait expectantly and more nerve racking. It is also interesting al the different situations in which God talks about waiting. It is much more than having patience.

Not all of my post will be about how God is speaking to me at the moment, because there are times when I feel that the daily details of life are important, but here it is for today. I am not sure if anyone iis interested in my life however if you are will keep posting for you to read and if not this is just a place to get my thoughts out.